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date/time недеља, 30. новембар 2008.,02:53
i caused everything
 "i'm tired of suffering so much, i'm tired of hating my self, i'm tired of hating sumbody, i'm tired of hating my life and the world. Yeah ill put all the blame on me. Everthng i'll do, just make things more complicated"
"when will i ever get the chance of feeling happy.i'm tired of waiting for my happiness, tired of being the cause of problems"
maybe i don't usually take problems seriously, but hell i'm getting tired of it. Evrything i do just doesn't seem right. i want to change but i guess my efforts are always put to waste or maybe i don't really put any effort to it.
Home, school how long will this last? I just can't wait for the day where everything will seem right. I need help. Will somebody help me?
"please im desperate and im begging anybody. Anyone?" -cute little piggy bank is desperate-
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date/time субота, 29. новембар 2008.,04:35
heart "BETRAYAL"
 "i really do not know if this was called betrayal, only i knew i was hurt"
It's hard to lose trust to somebody specially when that somebody has a special place in my heart. I don't want to call it betrayal but you know what you did. You are my friend, and i lend so much trust on you. You know how much he means to me, but why did you have to get on my way and hurt me so much. I'm not blaming you for everything that happened but compared to a gun you are the "TRIGGER". I know you never thought that this will be the outcome of your actions. But will you please think!!!
You are my friend and i care so much for our friendship but i can't just zip my mouth about this. I'm hurt and you know that. I know that you could understand me and all i can do is forgive. I have forgiven you already but that doesn't mean that my wounds are healed. Time heals the wounds but i guess it's not the time for healing. I'll take my time. soon.. i guess
-you know who you are-
-cute little piggy bank is doubtful-
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date/time 03:52
TWILIGHT mania
 WAAHHH!!!! grabe antagal ko ring hinintay ang twilight at dumating na ang araw na pinakahihintay ko. Actually hindi naman ako masyadong adik sa TWILIGHT (adik lang walang masyado) pero dahil sa impluwensya ng aking mga kaibigan aun nahawaan.
So hindi naman sya naging long weekday, since knaya ko ngang mag-intay, peo aaminin ko naging excited ako dhil sa tambalan nina ROBERT at KRISTEN bagay kc sila. At gusto ko rin makita kung paano nila isinalin sa pelikula at isang napakagandang nobela (ummm.. teka nobela ba twilight hehehe?)
Anu nga ba malalagay ko d2, cguro wla kundi kinilig ako.. WAHHH!!! ang cute nilang dalawa. Ang wafu ni edward ang ganda ni bella. Nakakatuwa ung movie ang isang romantic and suspense na kwento (para sa akin) naging romantic comedy na movie ahahaha....
Anyway marami akong napuna... maganda ang movie peo ndi maganda ang transition ng kwento kc nman eh no putol putol... anlalaki ng laktaw.. kung hindi mo nabasa ung libro ndi mo cya masyadong maiintindihan. hahaha peo lang magagawa ung ganun kc ang WAFU talaga ni Edward lalo na nung naka sun glass siya.
ALICE. Ang kyut mo!! i like you hahaha cute pa ng boses ahhh.. piling ko mas maadik pa ako sau kesa kay bella eh. Sayang ndi masyadong marami ang scenes mo dun sa movie. Gustong gusto ko marinig ang mliliit mong tinig ahahaha.....
ROSALIE. maganda ka pala tlaga. ahahaha ndi ko kc masyadong nagustuhan mga itsura mo sa pics eh.
ISA KA PA CARLISLE WAFU MO!!!!
Anlakas ng dating ng CULLENS grabe. anyway piling ko mas maadik ako sa movie kesa sa kwento ahahaha
haayyy hanggang ngaun ndi ko pa rin tapos eclipse
aabangan ko new moon eclipse at breaking dawn
-your exactly my brand of heroine-
-cute little piggy bank is admiring twilight-
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date/time уторак, 25. новембар 2008.,04:33
tHe DREAMS of my Reality
 "hindi ko alam kung panu ako magiging masaya. time still doesn't heal the wounds and hide the scars."
marami na ang nangyari at binalik ng mga nangyari ang lahat ng bangongot sa realidad kong buhay.
Ngaun ok nman ako, masaya sa aking buhay na ngaun ay tinuturing kong panaginip. Isang panaginip na auko nang iwanan.
I'm so happy because I'm back in your arms, but still the wounds aren't healed. Mahal kita, oo mahal kita sobra!! peo masakit at alam ko naiintindhan mo iun. Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos kasi nabawasan na ang mga pasanin ko at umaus na rin ang buhay ko
. Nasaan na tau? were on the stage of forgiving each other. Alm ko masyadong awkward pinag-gagagawa natin kc nman no, ambilis. We'll take it easy. Hanggang ngaun i'm not convinced that evrythng that is happening is real. WAKE ME UP!!! HELP!!
hindi ko alam kung kelan ako magigicng sa realidad kung saan hindi ako masasaktan ng lubus-lubusan but i know sumday....
-cute little piggy bank is happily dreaming-
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date/time понедељак, 24. новембар 2008.,07:30
Depressions..!!
"alam ko na madami pang problema ang darating sa buhay ko, pero ndi ako bibitiw! Kakapit lang ako at panghahawakan ko lahat ng bagay na alam kong magpapasiya sa akin"cguro masyado ng late itong post na ito.. (haha pakialam ninyo, kung ngaun ko ninais maglagay") ummm... ibahin na lng natin ang sasabihin ko "in every rain there is always a rainbow and every rainbow ends with a pot of gold" o diba sosyal ndi na tunnel ahaha...
Anyway kung sino man ang magbabasa nito malalamn ninyo kung gaano kagulo ang utak ko (kung meron mang magkakainteres na basahin ito :P)
Actually wla akong masabi... hahah "SPEECHLESS" ika nga, peo speechless nga ba , o masyado lang akong nasaktan at nabigla sa lahat nang nangyari kaya ndi lang ako makapagsalita.
Lets just say that, i have found the rainbow in the rain but i haven't reach or better yet found the pot of gold on its end. I know that i will be going through a lot of rain in my life and i know that i'll always find a rainbow in there but it'll take too long for me to know how to search for those gold.
I haven't learned "yes i mean it" but i found out something my HAPPINESS
right now i've been going thru a lot of pains cuz my "sun" left me on my darkest hours.
the only thing that brightens up my day left me, for some unacceptable reasons. "YES I MEAN IT, I SAID 'AYOKO NA' " now i take it back. I realized that i'm willing to be hurt over and over again just to be with sumone or sumthing that makes me happy.
Of course this "thunderstorm" opened my eyes to many opportunities of being happy. And i'm so thankful that i have true friends that lit a candle for me when i'm stumbling in the dark. They served as sanctuary when i have no home to go into.
(peo, Diyos ko nman! ang hirap noh ung isa pa sa knila ang naging isa sa mga dhilan kung bkit nacra ang lht ng pinaglaban ko!)
Anyway i lost my "sun" why would i fight and let go of my moon also "ISA AKONG MALAKING TANGA PAG GINAWA KO IYON".
Now im fighting to get my "sun" back. Paiiralin ko pa ba ang pride?
HAPPINESS is more important to me than PRIDE
i would never ever let my pride get in the way
"aanhin mo ang pride mo kung hindi ka msaya, ikaw lang ang matatalo ndi sila"
ANYWAY NDI AKO MARTIR!!!!
i just know where i can find my happiness
(paulit-ulit lng ako)
"ngayon, ndi ako titigil hanggat ndi ko nkakamit ang kaligayahan ko. Tanggalan na kung tanggalan ng pride.i don't care, wala nmang mawawala sa akin kung mwawala ang pride ko eh,basta lahat ng mahalagang tao sa buhay ko ndi mawala. Hindi ako bibitiw sa "sun" ko (panghahawakan ko pangako natin sa isa't isa) peo ndi ko na rin bibitawan friends ko. isasama ko na sa speech ko ang pagpapasalmat sa mga tumulong at sumuporta sa akin. PINALAKAS NINYO AKO!!! lalo na kau PAU, ANNAL, BEVS, KENNA at ang buong kasapi ng HERTZ!!!
bsta ndi ko kau iiwan peo ndi ko rin cya iiwan, gagawa ako ng paraan tandaan ninyo yan!"
-piggy bank-
(and will always gonna be your piggy bank)
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