"its been a long time since i started to sleep in my nightmares. Deep in my slumber i new i was dreaming but now, it feels so good to be awaken."
i knew once inside that something's missing right here in my life or should i say someone. Now? I'm complete, satisfied and could not ask for more.
i thought that my happiness will never come back to me. For months now, i've been used to living in dreams and nightmares. I'm used to crying out all night and screaming with no one to turn to. I had accepted the fact that in life, people come and go, things change.. or like what sumone says "there's nothing stable in human affairs" which was always proven to be true. Even though I already accepted the truth, the pain still pierce inside of me. Creating a deep hole in my heart tearing it into pieces. I've once said that, i'm pulvorized, alone and incomplete. But then, i started to see life beyond the problems, betrayals and heartaches. That no matter how tough evrything may be.. there will be GOD to help me through. And so i learned to move on. I learned to move and fight my nightmares. I learned to trust GOD and to follow evrything on his will.
Where am i now? Completely awaken, and thankful that i had fought back. I had regained what was used to be mine and known the people to be treasured the most. I know somewhere inside me learned sumthing from my long long sleep. Trials aren't given by the Lord to tell or prove to you, that you are weak. It's never meant to be the punishment but the nourishment. Without these we will never ever learn to be strong, to fight and to accept the wrongs that we have done. Like what a famous saying says, "Life without a discourse is unworthy of a man". Life has no meaning if it has no downs. We will never consider it worthy or worthwhile without it. Though we may wish for a perfect life, God will continue to give us these trials to make us strong and prepared for everything. "reading maketh a full man... DISCOURSE A READY MAN..."
"i know here in my life, i will encounter enormous obstacles that may hinder my happinness, but it doesn't mean that i'll stop being strong and jolly. Right now. im awaken and i dont care for what happens to the future for as long as i'm happy in my present and as long as i am in the right track. I know in this journey God is with me and will never ever let me fall."
anyway back to the main topic:
i am soooooo... happy that you came back to my life now. IM COMPLETE NOW!!! I had never imagine my life without you. Im awaken from my nightmare and i've come back to reality where i have you in my arms.. hope this will last forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...... :P
-feels so good to be awaken :Piggy bank-
